i was looking into a hole in the ground. there were tiny little birds in it. like the size of a bee, but it looked like a tiny sparrow. except it was blue - gorgeous, brilliant, bright royal blue. there were many of them, some so small they looked like ladybugs. it was so amazing. i didn't want to squish any of them by accident.

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the two of them were in my room. it was a living room with big glass sliding doors. she was sitting on the couch and he was standing in the door way. they were talking nonchalantly about how they were going to get some mescaline and do a whole bunch of it. in my mind it was the worst drug you could do. i knew that even though things weren't good between us, i didn't want her starting down that path. i still cared about her.
i tried to explain, to show her how worried i was, but she was offended that i'd tell her what to do. he was annoyed as well. i couldn't believe he was encouraging this. he made me feel so small. i got frantic and i could feel i was making a fool of myself. they were looking at me like i was crazy.