feb 22 07

we were playing a show somewhere, we decided to let everyone we knew join the band. including dylan m. the bus was piled high with extra stuff, like bags and mattresses. when we got to the place we all had to wait hours to get a shower because there were so many of us.

this boy and i had kissed and then we hung out for a while. i thought i was doing really good, but i guess he thought that i was too uptight (when in fact i was just nervous), and decided he didn't want to hang out with me. i sort of accepted that, but i was still a little hopeful. it ended when i walked into a room, and i looked around for a seat, and there weren't very many seats, because of how many people were there. there was a seat by albert, but he was on his computer. he said he was about to leave, but i saw another seat that looked more comfy, and i went and sat there and the boy i kissed was sitting there with someone, and he actually got mad and was like "this is way too crowded, can't you sit somewhere else?".

i went into another room to get ready to play a solo set. i wasn't sure if i remembered the words. i was humming and then the sound guy came up and started playing the chords. i had never seen him before, but he said he did sound for me before and totally loved it and remembered everything about it. he was hitting on me pretty big time.

i had to go get a shower. i was pretty sure there was no one in there so i made my way by high speed train to the stage, which is where the shower was set up. or at least it was in a big room with sliding doors with a drum kit behind it. devon was there, sitting at the drum kit, but i figured i could get him to leave if i was going to get a shower. a different boy showed up and every time i would take off my shoes or socks, he would do it too. i think he thought he was getting in the shower with me. however, we looked in the shower and sidney was in there, which is why devon was guarding her. sidney got mad at devon for letting us look in the shower.

then devon said "did you hear the news? carmen went crazy and shot j. barber, and anyone who was wearing pink". where she got a gun, i don't know. we went to find her, and she was crouched on an indoor train track. a tiny train came super fast and hit her legs, but she wasn't hurt other than that. we watched as the cops came and escorted her away. then shane almost got hit by the same train.