august 2004

i was at my friend keith's house in south bar. he has one of those yards that is just a large lawn surrounded by trees. we were in his backyard and there were lots of us, all of our friends, but the mood was very sombre. i knew something was about to happen, but i couldn't say what. then, just at a certain time, we all went out into the yard and looked up. the sun was out, but it didn't hurt our eyes to look straight at it. as we watched, black spots appeared on its surface. they grew and grew, and eventually covered the whole sun. the world was in twilight. we went back inside, to wait.

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there were these guys who kept stealing cars and putting them into my driveway, thinking it was all a great joke, and i wouldn't have the guts to stand up to them. i started threatening them with the cops, and i wrote down all the license plates.

i kept having these flash-forwards, into an alternate earth, where everything was dark, and there was water on the ground. built up on the surface of the place where i was, there were pillars of wood, with a trellis horizontally laid across them, covered in plants, vines. it was dark and creepy.

i was back in the present tense, talking to some people, marvelling at how quickly the tendrils of this one plant were growing around an old tin can.

then i was in the alternate world again, at the very end of things,. i heard a voice. it was coming from the plant. well, it was coming from the one bit of plant that wasn't rotten or dead. the water was a murky purplish brown, with debris floating in it. an eerie female voice was saying "i didn't understand. it's my nature to do this. why did it kill me? i didn't know i would bring ruin on everything. i'm sorry". and i saw a clump of the plants flying through the air really slowly, and finally it went into the water to drown itself.

i realized that the plant had taken over the world, shut out all the light, and tried to do what it was naturally inclined to do - that is, order all things for its optimum growing conditions, and force the extinction of all other species. something went wrong, and the effects of the changes were irreversible, and all life on earth would end soon.

we (the remaining humans) wandered off in a random direction, to try and find something that would keep us going a little longer, to postpone the inevitable.

september 13 02

did you ever have one of those dreams?
the moment your eyes open, it fades into nothing but a few blurry scenes?
and the whole rest of the day you're left fighting against the harsh realities you find waiting
and chasing that feeling
because even if you don't remember what happened
you know it was really, really good.

some time in 2004

i was in the mountains in peru. there was a lake - it was the most beautiful color of blue i've ever seen in my life.

i was on the amazing race. the competition was fierce, but for some reason, one of the challenges involved us being at a circus. i thought i could live my real life, and still compete in the race, so i booked a show at the circus for yellow. for some reason i was wearing a wedding dress. it was so hot out, and the wedding dress made everything worse. in order to win the amazing race i had to find a certain pop vendor and buy pop from them. the rest of the contestants made fun of me.

i was playing in fredericton, but the bar felt like stage 9 and the manhattan / paramount altogether. there was a crusty old lady working the bar. everything was made of wood and glass, and you had to climb a long flight of stairs up to a balcony thing to get in. we were so drunk that someone had spilled something down their shirt, and we had to sneak past the front desk or they'd know how drunk we were and not let us in. there were hippy guys everywhere and the worst girl singers in the world were playing the opening set. we were acting very conspicuous. i was worried about how our set would go since we were all so drunk.